Sometimes I'm a Drag

I know that. Sometimes I can be just too much of an idiot.

Wifey is going through some changes of her own at the moment, in her journey to find life's answers. Cutting down or maybe even giving up booze altogether is one of those. So when I come home like a juicy idiot a couple of times per week, I think it's hard for her.

Plus recently I had an anger episode where I was really mean to Lala. She was mean in the first place, but it was provoked, and hey, she is only 7. But I was very mean in return. I am not normally a mean-spirited person. In fact the opposite. I guess I am capable of it though. Luckily not very often, but on occasion, I am a prick.

I need to work on that. We have had some wonderful family moments lately, and for a long time I have felt that wifey and I were becoming even closer. I need to nurture and love these moments, let them take over fully. I know I have doubts, mainly stupid job ones and money ones again. But as wifey always says, we'll get through, whatever happens. We have our little backup policy now, which helps a lot. I just want to do more, and be more.

Deep breath, and let go of the negatives. Life has been and is being very good to me. I have a lot to smile about.

Addendum: I need to realise it's not all about me, and at the same time, give myself a break and love myself more. Might sound like an oxymoron, but it makes sense to me, a normal moron.