Tough

Yeah it's a bit tough at the moment.

I know finding a new job takes time, particularly when one is being fairly picky, as I am still trying to be. But from time to time I get a bit shitty with the situation.

Is any of the reason I am currently unemployed my fault? Well, perhaps a little. I mean I wanted out of Kupang, and I made no attempt to hide that fact. When it happened, after the initial shock, I was glad. I was like "this is what I wanted anyway". And that is true.

However I could have been a little more circumspect I imagine. Actually no screw that. I didn't do anything wrong. My last meeting with the board had me pitted against our main local shareholder's main man. They were maneuvering, as they always do, and I shot him down in flames. Our Chairman sought me afterward and told me I'd done a great job. Three days later I no longer had a contract. I suspect our CEO had different ideas to the Chairman. But then again, the CEO was always about sucking up to anyone who might give him money.

Ok ok, no need to rehash this shit. The bottom line is I may have contributed towards getting out a little earlier than planned, but the end result was the same. I now need to focus on moving forward. There are a number of really interesting roles out there, at least a couple of which I have interviewed for (with headhunter anyway) and appear to have done well in. So we'll see. We're ok here for some time yet. I just need to stay focused on the job at hand, stay positive and stay loving and supportive to those around me. That very much includes myself!

Actually, that's not that hard to do, I just need to let off steam sometimes. I come on here to do that, because largely I'm here to talk to myself, or the ether, or my grown-up kids if they ever dig up this old blog down the track. Wasn't it Malcolm Fraser who said life wasn't meant to be easy? Well he was correct. It's not easy at the moment, but hey, it's not exactly hardship living either. So I won't complain. Chin up and keep on keeping on old boy.

The returns will come soon. Just think about those impressions again and make sure you're putting your best foot forward. You owe it to yourself to do that.

Footnote: Since I wrote this slightly frustrated and perturbed post, I have secured three interviews. Looking up a bit...