Well, do I?

 I'm not much for motivational videos, self-help books, that kind of thing. I have always been my own man and I figure out my problems for myself. That said, I hardly slept at all last night, because I am grappling with a decision at the moment.

Steve Jobs once asked himself - "do I love what I do? If I knew today was my last day, would I be happy with what I am about to do?" Not an easy answer. To be frank no job would be part of my itinerary if I knew today was my last day. So maybe it's just another smear of self-help bullshit. Or maybe not. No, it is bullshit. What matters is making the most of your time. In this world, if you want free time (in my case that reads "retirement") then you need money. If you're still raising kids like me and want to live a decent life, that means lots of money.

I had a few beers last night and messaged Monster, telling him I was thinking about putting my hand up for Vietnam again. His response was that he is wearing himself out and needs help. He wants to know if I intend to make the plunge. Now I need to tell him something.

WTF am I going to do? Unlike a job ad, Monster has essentially handed me a contract, and a damn good offer. The risks? Will I get a work permit? Is the company secure enough for the long term? Is the world going to turn to shit anytime soon? Am I going to regret leaving Mawsons?

So the question really is, do I love what I do?

I think the answer is yes, but with a healthy dose of lifestyle, savings and a feeling that I am making the most of my life at the same time. I honestly doubt I can accomplish all that in Australia, well at Mawsons anyway. In a SEA expat role, life would be interesting and fun, I'd be making good money, and therefore I would be enjoying what I do. So the answer is you can't love what you do in isolation, it has to make sense in the bigger picture of your life.