"I'm giving you these words because I have very high expectations, and I am confident you can reach them".
I just this on a LinkedIn post (posted by JL), who quoted Adam Grant, on a powerful post on giving feedback and inspiring people. Reading JL's take on it inspired me somewhat I must say. I am at a bit of a cross-roads regarding leadership right now, so it's a poignant topic. That crossroads being uncertainty due to the poor leadership I am being given, and my concerns around the leadership I provide to others.
On another note, and this kind of irks me to be writing this post, as I am a self-confessed, self-help hater, I saw (heard) a pretty insightful quote last night. It was from some yank, white, obese rapper called Jelly Roll, so perhaps I should have kept scrolling, but it resonated. He won some award, which was for "best new talent", which he found ironic at the age of 39. But I guess it means, as I have always thought, that one can keep reinventing oneself. Anyway, the quote was along the lines of, "why do you think a windscreen is so much bigger than a rear-view mirror - it's because what's ahead is so much more important than what's behind you". I probably didn't get that entirely right, but the message is there, and I think it is an important one. I also saw last night, someone saying that if you do "it" right today, then your history has already improved, something like that. This line also resonated, as I do get down on myself sometimes, for my constant failings.
That's pretty topical right now. I was going to write poignant again, but then realised I keep using that word, so needed to figure out a different way to communicate the point.
My drama is, my boss is hopeless. He knows the business, inside and out. He works harder than anyone else, no question there. He genuinely cares about his people, I do accept that. But he thinks strategy is a nice-to-have and not something that we need to sit down and discuss, adopts a very directive, micromanaging approach, and provides absolutely zero feedback. It puts me in a tough spot. My only feedback is that I give myself. For those that know me, you will know that in this situation, it is not ideal. That is because I am an extremely harsh critic of myself. I am also prone to catastrophism. When I am in a circle of feedback and open communication, I immediately improve my outlook. When I am not, I struggle. But the flip side of that coin is the freedom I have. I like the fact I can work from home when it suits me. I like being able to arrange my own schedule, and be home/at school when I need to be. I get paid well, the bonus situation is pretty good, and generally, the people I work with are great.
But a man needs leadership, especially a man like me. I think if things were better with my boss, I would be less inclined to go looking for other potential jobs, and spend less time all hazy-eyed for SEA. As I have blogged about before, I have the stability I had been yearning for here, so why is that not enough? I know why. The answer is leadership. I am going back to work tomorrow after a two-week break. The new guy in Milbrae should be settled enough now, plus the boss went to Sydney last week and was given a strategy briefing by our new JV partner. This pleases me. Their MD is also coming here next week, to brief our leadership team too, which includes me of course. I am keen to see where this might lead. Watch this space.
















